Thoughts and Distractions of a Crazed Singer

So, I talked to my teacher about my role for Die Fledermaus. I thought that it was a last minute decision, but I guess my role was one of the easiest to cast. My low range carries better than the actually mezzo and my top is still filling out. So I am not quite ready to sing Rosalinda…but the prince sits high so it should be fun.

Okay, I got cast in Die Fledermaus as the prince, however,I am a soprano. A lyric coloratura in fact and the Prince is a mezzo-soprano. Hence,my confusion. Especially since the mezzo -soprano got the soprano role. We are both confused and the mezzo is pissed. I have no vocal confidence and I feel like being cast as a mezzo was like a “throwing the awful graduate soprano a bone”. Let’s throw the soprano who is takes a little longer, whom other schools seemed to think was worth something, a bone so she doesn’t cry. I was told I had the best voice in our scene at NOA… granted it needs refinement(working on it). My voice is just a late bloomer. So suck it teachers. I will be the prince,and I will be the best DAMN Prince ever played at ESU. EVER!

Happy New Year Everyone! 2011 was amazing, but I am ready for the things that this year will bring, starting with a trip to Memphis and a performance at The National Opera Association Conference. It is also a time for me to start looking for summer programs, specifically, I am looking at Canta! In Italia, since I’ve always heard it is a good time. It is just a matter of money…cause it is A LOT of money.  Also, I have apprehension of leaving my husband for 6 weeks, I mean I know it would be worth it, I just want him to come with me and experience the fun together. Anyway, does anyone have any favorite summer programs?

Over the break and next semester I want/need to develop a tougher skin. My ego and confidence is easily shattered, example being I feel like I ROCKED my jury. I was feeling awesome, I was feeling accomplished but my voice teacher told me “you pushed, and you had some wrong notes. ” Balloon POPPED. I work so hard this semester, found my “big girl sound”, played Konstanze, got my scene accepted to N.O.A, sang the final trio from Faust…but apparently my that’s not enough. I got in my car and dissolved into tears. I even asked her if I should quit grad school and she said ” I don’t think you need to do that.” YOU DON’T THINK? YOU DON’T THINK!? You are my advisor and mentor, my teacher and mother figure….and you don’t THINK!? I love to sing, it is my life and actually I am starting to love my new sound. But I feel like this department wants to focus so much on preparing us for the real world, that they forget to to support and encourage. Does anyone have any tips to help a lyric coloratura out?

I feel like I should be writing something relevant? I miss blogging, Suggestions from my readers?